Hike-Up Stone Mountain

Stone Mountain is 90ft tall and 190ft wide and the day I went hiking up it, I didn't know that lol. Aug 30th 2014 was the day myself and my family went up to the top of Stone Mountain. My husband King and I was sleeping the morning my mother-in law wake us up to go to Stone Mountain. I had know idea, what we was about to get into. So seeing that we are always looking into new things, we just agreed to go. Now our mom has been up this mountain about 4, well 5 times. This was our first time going up this thing and she told us that this mountain was no punk. Now I seen people running up and down the mountain and really begain to think 'Oh I can do this.'  I have never been more wrong! Rocks! Lots and lots of rocks and you have to go up them. What the hell dude? We start up this thing and about 10mintues into it, I wanted to stop! But my husband took my hand and helped me up keep pushing. I had to stop about 7 times going up. But I seen people older than me, and little kids going past me. Still pushing and making it. Now it was 3 paths. Two with out a lot of rock and the one that we had taken. I know when people read this, they may ask why didn't I just take one of the paths with out a lot of rocks? Well I started looking this mountain like life. So parts of it will be easy and other parts, will be rocky. So King and made our way up the mountain together. And the higher we got, the more I looked around me. And what I saw was great! Friend's helping one another, husband and wife holding hands pushing and making it, kids with mom and dad enjoying the day. Everyone helping everyone else. No judgement just everyone trying to get to the top. I guess 45 minutes to a hour later King and I made it to the top of Stone Mountain......
And once we did it felt so good! Looking out and being about to see the skyline of the city, made everything seem so small. All the stuff we deal with just didn't matter when your looking at God's work.

Saving My Life (Part II)

My move to California started me on a path to becoming healthy.  Last time I blogged was 5/3/14 and I wanted to share my story, about weight loss.  Here is the link to part one ( http://mrskeetareid.blogspot.com/2014/05/saving-my-life.html?m=1 )

Today makes almost 3weeks from my last check-in. I was 289lbs when I started working out,  and trying to eat better.  This thing isn't easy at all, I have been working so hard on cutting fried foods, too many sweets,  and not to much fast foods.  I have been trying to work-out everyday of the week and I am down 10.4lbs I have a long way to go, but I am doing what I need to do to get this weight off.

I'm not trying to get right for the summer,  I am trying to makr my life right.

Never Good Enough

I will never be a full girly girl, because I love boy stuff. I will never want to stop my day to look at love movies,  because Bones is on! I like dresses, but give me a t-shirt and Nike's any day. I cuss to much, and hide my pain. But I'm not good enough. I will never be a size 6 and I don't always eat right. I love to hard, and have a hard time letting go. I see the glass half full, but never know when to say that it's all the water is gone.

But I will never be good enough!

Saving My Life

Just about my whole life my weight has been up and down. When I was little no one told me I needed to be active and I needed to eat right. When I was about 11 or 12 my doctor told me I had to lose weight,  I was 170Lbs, I was way too big.  I lost weight with no problem and then when I went back to school, a teacher walked up to me and said, I had to be making myself throw up. (I wasn't) That summer before school started back up, I would walk everyday,  workout with my best friend at the time. We would walk from North Avenue, to Downtown Baltimore.  My Sister Mary had me walking with her all summer long and I was eating better.  No one made me do this, I understood what I needed to do and why. But once that teacher said that to me, I just felt like if I was too big, I would be talked about and once I lost the weight I was being talked about. Once i seen that no matter my size, people are going to find something to say about me... At that point I seen the change in myself, I wasn't walking as much or eatting the way, I should have been. I  was still able to get down to 145-150lbs and was able to keep it at that place until my 10th grade year of high school.  Some much started happening my 10th grade year.  I got put into a new school, my home life wasn't the best and I was getting out of a unhealthy relationship ( story for another day).  So the stress really started hitting home. I become a emotional eater. When I was sad, bored, or stressed, I would eat. By the time I was out of high school food became my best friend. I became okay with being unhealthy, and sad. I just would act like everything was okay. I would smile and help everyone else with their problems,  and push mine to the back. Now at 24 I am at my  heaviest weight.  And because of it I have some health issues.  (All that can be changed if I get the weight off.) I have to save my life, but I thank God for my husband who love's me no matter what size I am,  but still works out with me and eat's health with me. He takes all the same steps I am taking.. My mother-in law and aunt-in law who invited me to workout with them in the morning.  And help to push me. I have only been working out for about a month or so but I have been seeing change.  And now I have been working on my triggers.  And not letting food take over my life. It is hard! But I have to stand by my change of mind. 

Tyana Mc

I know that our time together was short but I love you like my sister.  We had so much more talking and joking to do and I know that you are looking over all of us. I love you sis and I know this isn't goodbye,  but it feelings like it.

You were smart and outgoing, loving and our know it all. I know one day soon we will be together. 

      See you soon sister! 

                                -Keeta

I need to vent (side chick)

Okay y'all I need to get this off my mind.  I was on facebook today and I seen some shit that pissed me the fuck off!
Someone on my timeline made a comment say's ( don't be mad at the side chick, because she doing what you can't for your man. If you was taking care of home, he wouldn't be going to her) or some bullshit like that. It made me some damn mad! First off understand if you are or have been a (side chick) and you had zero idea that was the roll you had been given.... no one can be mad at you. Someone made you believe that you was #1 and you just went with that... but on the other hand! If you KNOW that he/she has a relationship with someone else and you are okay with playing the roll of boyfriend/girlfriend #2 fuck you two times over.

You get no damn respect from me and never will.  You come up with some bullshit reasons, why it is okay to be doing what it is you are doing. ' oh if she was taking care of home, he wouldn't come to me'.. Well that's bullshit!  That dude isn't all that happy with your ass, because he goes back home to his wife.

'They help me pay my bill's, they help take care of me' No shit! They helping your dumb ass, they need you to be quite Rolf.  They not about to let you fuck up home.

'They going to be with me as soon, as they get out of that relationship.' Wrong! They never walk away from home boo! And guess what if they do, the same way you got them is going to be the same way you will lose them. No need to say more.

'I don't know their boyfriend/girlfriend,  or husband/wife so it don't matter to me.' How fucked up are you? You are willing to hurt someone you do not know. That's how people get fucking killed now a days. And to top that  if it's children apart of this, you are hurting them even more. 'Well I just don't care.' Yeah we all see that! But you mad when someone does the something to you.

'I have been hurt before and I just want to be loved. ' Umm okay, here is a newsflash!  THEY DON'T LOVE YOUR ASS! !!!! That person is giving you part's of them not all of them. Someone is giving crumbs of their love and you are okay with that?  That says alot about how you feel about yourself.

I could go on forever about this but I am not even going to do it. Just understand karma is so real. And that shit always comes back around on you. Most of the time the side chick or dude withh fall in love and they always do.. and once they do that person fucks them over