This Time

I have spent my life trying to make sure that, I keep the people around me happy.. Now that I am married and working on having kids, I can no longer work for them.
I have to take the time from others to make sure me and mine are okay. I see that a lot of people don't seem to understand that my life line up has changed, it's God and then my husband and me. And when you have people around who can't get that, it makes it that much harder to tell them no. I have to make, or better I say take away time from something to give it away to something else, and that is what I feel I fail at.. poor timing.

I have been told some crazy stuff, and most of it was about how to be a wife. Something I feel you can not tell. Being a wife or mother is all in the eye of the beholder. What I feel and what you feel, about it, will not be the same. (I.E. the way we love or care). Some women have told me that, they just do what they want, with no thought about how that could hurt the man in her life. Some others have gone and cut off all life from others. But with me I would like to think, I have a happy place. I respect for my husband, so I will not do any life changing thing's without talking it over with him first. This man is my King and I am his Queen and we treat each other as such. But I also make time to be me. I find things to better myself, like going to school or learning to drive, or just being around my friends.

So this time around, I will make people understand, that life isn't what it use to be for me, I have some else to think of. That I can no loger, stop everything to make sure they have what it is they want from me. This time I have to make sure my timing is just right, so that I can make things better. I am happy and I would love for everyone to see that, this time it's not about them, but it's about me.